Mr Nation, if you had as many classes as I have, including concealed carry permit, and the hundreds of hours of range time and dry fire practice as I have had, as well as most RESPONSIBLE firearms owners, perhaps your phobia could be helped. Until then I'll rest my case. The accidental shooting of your brother was awefull and I am glad he survived. It also makes it a bit easier to understand your intense fear of anything firearm related.
Jack, you are self-admitting alcoholic (Recovering). Are you really the type of person that should be trusted with a deadly weapon? Perhaps alcoholic dementia could make you forget all that training? It sure seems a lot more plausible than your dime store psychoanalysis of my personality. Just sayin'...